I thought I’d be terrified of my 25th birthday.
I’m not.
On my 24th I cried while having my egg muffin and coffee on my way to work. I cried so much I had to wait for my nose to go back to its color for about half an hour or so. It didn’t feel vain, and I won’t regret it
Today I’m in a hospital room, looking after a family member with a life-threatening illness. It’s my birthday, and I’m happy. Silver linings are so bright through hard times. I’m happy she laughed today, and I’m happy she ate.
I’m not undermining my old sadness and struggles; I don’t have the right to. They honed me, I think, and prepared me for realer sorrows. I learned how to get over a bad day, and how to be patient, and how to validate what I think and feel. They all became weapons somehow, arming me as I struggle through the biggest trial I’ve ever found myself in.
My 24th wasn’t easy. I saw one of my greatest fears unfolding before me. But I braved it, and I’ve been braving since. I’ve pushed myself beyond my limits, and more than once pieced together my own brokenness and others’. I’m so incredibly proud of myself for the meaning I found, for being stronger than I and everyone else could’ve ever imagined. And to be frank, I owe it to my 24th year for making me realize that I truly deserve to be happy.
“It is a privilege to grow older,” a nurse told me yesterday, although she didn’t know my birthday was so soon. And it really is, I found myself thinking. A year ago I dreaded all the things I haven’t achieved yet, and how I’m falling behind in a virtual, collective timeline I put myself and others it. But what a comforting thought it is, that all will come, everything that’s yours will come in its due time if you work for it.
So this one’s to my 25 year old self, who sometimes feels too tired to be so young, and other times too silly to be so old. Raise your head high, and find your path. It will be there, always.
Stay strong ❤️ and happy birthday!
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Thank you for writing this ❤️ My birthday is coming up soon and I’m really dreading it for reasons that are quite similar to what you mention here. Reading this gave me perspective. Reading this as you so beautifully wrote it was such a special moment. And happy birthday!
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Really 🥺? When’s yours? Just have fun and celebrate being alive and healthy; there’s nothing else to do about it 🎈 💫
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You’ve got this. Continue writing and expressing yourself and inspiring readers like me.
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BIRTHDAY.
Also: i was in a coma on my twenty fifth. That was the day they pulled life support and i didn’t die. Take what you will from that
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Bruh, thats intense ( also, great inspo for microfiction)
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Wrote a 20,000 page book about it called You’re Not Dead. It’s out of print, but it’s around
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20,000 WORD, NOT PAGE
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I’d read (either way.) you think you could hook me up with a copy?
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I messaged you on Twitter a bit ago, right?
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This was what i needed. Thankyou . Happy belated birthday
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Although late, happy birthday!
Hope you’re having a great day when you’re reading this! 😀
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Thank you! I hope you are, too ✨
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64 will catch you by surprise – at least it did me!!!
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Love this, thank you for sharing. Thanks also for stopping by my blog :}
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